My 50th post

I saw a moth on my way home.. Is it my grandparents cause i believed it kinda follow me for awhile. If u are really one of my grandparents, thx for the visit. I love u even though my memories cant take me very far. But, i noe i was a great grandson to u grandpa since i came in first in kindergarden 1 and made u proud before u leave, and as for grandma, i never stopped loving u even in ur dying moments. thats why u all loved me so much!!!! *chuckles* U jus made me walked out of the misery i was feeling.. ^^ love u 2 so much..

If only.....

If only we met jus a bit later.
If only we met earlier.

If only he did not come between us.
If only he came between us 3 months later.

If only u knew how i felt deep down.
If only u hanged on to me in our darkest times.

If only i had a bit more confidence.
If only i had been a stronger person.

If only i knew what i did was a great mistake.
If only i had someone to guide me along.

If only i had shared my thoughts with u in my darkest times.
If only i had put in more effort to salvage the situations.

If only u believe i would change for u.
If only u walked this path with me.

If only we expressed our love.
If only we said "i love u" more.

If only u noe i may be the guy for u.
If only u noe u're the girl for me.

If only i had a chance.
If only i can turn back time.

If only i had a shot right now.
If only i can win u now.

If only i was yours.
If only u were mine.

If only, All these "If only(s)" are not just "If only(s)".
If only, If only~

Tan Jian An

*/edited: Just wanna know wat is going on, know wat the truth is all about. and for the record. I'm touched. U noe who u are.. =)*